At first I was like…
But then I emailed her and calmly asked her for clarification on how she calculated my “grade.” Then went into detail about my exam and quiz scores.
She responded saying- I changed your grade.
BUT after I checked my grade it was still not right.
I’m too chicken to check my grades from this term. Whomp whomp.
Today- Finish Final Paper
Tomorrow- Study for Stat Final in the morning- take Stat Final at 3:30pm
Tuesday- Study for Human Physiology Final till 2pm take hard online final that I am already destined to fail at 2 pm and then go back to studying for Human Physiology after
Wednesday- Study until 3:30 for Human Physiology Final- which he promised to make impossible and that I’m so screwed for……and then at 3:30 pm. Resign myself to my fate of failure…and take it to get it over with but break my hand because it’s so damn long.
Thursday- First day of Break —> Study to retake the MCAT.
Sylvia Plath (via nonamesareleft)
I am so shy.
My shyness was a much larger problem when I was a child.
In college I was able to move past much of it.
I’m a friendly but in control volunteer. I’m pretty good at presentations, and although I’m nervous before public speaking I generally get through just fine. I can debate and talk science anytime…
In a group I’m generally a bit quiet but no biggie, you can’t win them all….So given this information why this post?
Because, today I was in put in a new group and I felt shy. I felt so shy and it was this weird vastly familiar yet unwelcome feeling within me. Was it because they were attractive? Was it because my insecurities are surmounting with each med school rejection? I’m not sure but I didn’t like it.
My problem is not with the fact that I felt such a large amount of shyness, it is more the fact that I don’t know where it came from.